Friday, October 30, 2009

归来 的 快乐.

Chinese Turtle...Laughing Turtle...Flying Turtle ^^

It’s going to be another busy week for me. Awards Ceremony, Halloween outing, Visit my Grandma, UTs and Hotel event. Everything is just packing itself up these days. There doesn’t seem to be an end to things to do. BUT! I am so enjoying my life now.

Saturday is going to be the Awards Ceremony. I am so looking forward to it. I cannot even remember when the last time I won something was and go up to the stage to collect an award. I am going to work hard this semester and make sure I keep this up.

If you do not know, I have an Accounting module this semester. I remember 2 years ago, I promised my POA teacher, Ms Chia, that I will get an A2 for my O levels for accounts. That Jared then, was a lousy, lazy, idiot who only use his mouth more than his brain. I couldn’t fulfill that promise and managed to only barely pass with C6. I left the school with regrets.

Even though my achievements in RP has been really heartening already and I really want my secondary teachers to know, but I know this is not the time. I remember my principal Mrs Chow always tell us not to be complacent. That’s why I shall wait. I shall ACE this semester. I shall bring that unfulfilled A back to Westwood with glory.

Ms Chia! Wait for me for just 1 more semester. Jared will bring you the A soon.
Ms Sim! You heard it?! I am in the Academic Roll of Honors! No more that failure Jared.
Ms Lim…Ms Tan…Ms Tay…Mrs Teo…Ms Karasi…CRIS!

I really wish that each and every of my teachers know that it is them who made the change in me. Every one of them impacted my life. That is the power that teachers hold, the power to mould people.

I shall not fail.

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Sunday, October 25, 2009

忙 篇.

It was a busy week at school. With all that events going on, I wonder how long can I keep up with it.

I realized it has been quite some time since I post a few photos. So…Enjoy!

These were all taken on Thursday. We all went to ‘H-Hotel’ for an event. As usual, their management is not up to the standard. It is not that I want to mention it, but everyone just cannot take how those people treat the staff. Imagine different people assigning you different tasks and want you to complete them at the same time. They just don’t know how to spell COORDINATION.

Alright, never mind about them, but most of us still enjoyed ourselves there. We managed to appease ourselves by munching on their food when the event is almost over. I can only say “What a difference in the staff food and the food they serve!”

We reached home around 3am. I managed to catch some sleep at around 3.30am and I had to reach school by 8.30am. I was slightly late but the very nice Faci gave some leeway to that. She even let us submit our RJ one day later.

Ok, I’m out for dinner. I shall make another post in a while. ^^

Sunday, October 18, 2009

稱霸 天下 之 篇.

I just came back from dinner with my family. It is just so nice to have everyone together and sitting down to have some food and chit chat. It is at these times that I would still find that life gives out some hope and light in this ever chaotic world.
終于。 我又下定決心了。我不能再坐以待斃。未來掌握在我手裏， 看見大家已經對著戰鬥
Looking at their blogs… I tell myself I must I must I must. I must pull myself together. I can’t just have myself sinking into my own world just yet. I cannot remain so still in the dusts. I can I can I can. I believe if I continue to tell myself this, I definitely would be able to wake the sleeping mind.
失去了鬥志， 我一定要更加發奮圖強，把對手打敗，再次的站在那最高峰。不只是我，還有
My world doesn’t exist alone. My existence is to bring that happiness into others too. That is my principle of life. But, if I continue to just fall deeper into the pit, I would not be able to do it anymore.
和我並肩作戰的人們，我們一起努力，把他們通通擊退。我相信我們一定能夠一起稱霸這個
Maybe you may think, Why bother to make others happy? I can only say, because that is my reason to stay alive? Happiness is to be shared. How can one be happy without others being happy too?
天下。 [看太多終極三國的後果…]
So once again, for one more time, I would say: “Let’s all work hard for this semester! And we shall stand at the TOP of the mountain together!”

May Daddy God grant us the strength to fight this battle! Amen.

Saturday, October 17, 2009

樂 之 篇.

樂極生悲之篇.
School has once again started. The holidays just wheezed past like that and I am back into battlefield, on the Battle Mode. I promised someone that I will write something happy and not always something so down.
已經又開戰了。要我在這樣的生活裏尋找快樂，我只能說真是異想天開。但我真的感到很欣慰，
Thinking…
就算我的心情再怎麽低落，我都有一群非常關心我的人。可是你們能了解我在那裏的感受嗎。
Thinking…
在那裏好比深入險境，處處都可能會被暗箭所傷。開戰第二天，戰火連連。我也在戰亂中傷
Thinking…
得遍體鱗傷逼得我不得不撤退。 但是令我更加意想不到的是，我竟然會因爲戰敗而流下了眼
Thinking…
淚。我真的沒想到我的堅持只有到那樣的程度而已。我瞬間兵敗如山倒。在別人面前堅強的我
Thinking…
只有假裝累了，彎下身安靜的讓眼淚流干。在那裏別人的眼神是都麽的可怕。笑容裏總是帶著
There is only one happiest thing in my life now. And that’s the people who care about me. Those who keep encouraging me and make me smile when I just feel so down. Thanks to these people, that I am able to survive till now. Thank you people!
要置你于死地的氣息。我還能夠在那裏繼續拼搏嗎？我的能力真的只有在人之下的日子嗎？
Alright! Wait for my next post now…
能夠信任的又只有誰？我應該怎麽辦？

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Saturday, September 5, 2009

厭 之 篇.

I just have the urge to write something on the blog.
這個世界真的變化多端。 想起了以往的事情，也頓時發現大有不同。我真的憎恨我這雙手，
I just managed to go through some of the old stuff and once again found some lost memory. I saw visions of old things, old friends, old ties, and old feelings from this old memory. It kind of made me thought to myself a lot. I realized many things from it.
這雙沒用又直會破壞和摧毀事的雙手。 別人的感情、感受，都因爲我這沒用的雙手給摧毀。
The visions that I saw, were numerous. When I came back to reality, little did I know that these visions that I had seen, were long gone and away. These things, friends, ties and feelings were already lost and maybe even forgotten. I realized I never changed over the past years. I kept living in the shadows of the past but yet always forgetting that I am not in the light.
我根本沒有資格談什麽感情。 我根本沒有那個資格。我更加沒有那個資格去指責爲什麽沒有
It seems that I lived everyday with no purpose at all. No real and good purpose. I seemed to have enjoyed the kind of days I past, but yet when I turn back to look, nothing comes out of my mind. Is this where the problem lies? Why is there no memory at all? Does it simply mean that I haven’t been thinking and living my life?
人會理會我。問題的關鍵所在，就是自己。我還能夠舉起手來指責別人嗎，我還有那個膽量
I don’t know how much things have I lost over the years. Physical things, intangible things, I lost dozens and dozens of them. I always have said that my brother was a destroyer of things. He spoils everything with his touch, Computers, electronic devices and uncountable Physical things and objects. But I realized I then am the Master of Destroyer. I don’t destroy the mere physical objects, but what I destroy are the intangible things.
質問別人。完全沒有及不可能。我可能很恨這世界，但我更恨我自己。我恨自己的性格。我不
I really hate this. But I just can’t help it. Putting myself in the mirror, I would agree with others that this might really be an attitude problem, a serious attitude problem that I haven’t unravel till this date. This is the same thing that is repeating and repeating over the years, the exact same problem that I cannot solve, which is the Attitude problem.
了解我爲什麽會逃避。逃避問題、逃避現實所發生的事。 那就是我嗎？那就是真正的我嗎？
Avoid and Avoidance. Unknowingly, it has become the way I live this dreadful life. This cowardly inner self can just overtake this useless body to Avoid all the problems. When the problems arise, it becomes Avoidance. I am tired, really tired. It is just so tiring trying to run. But yet it ironically complements the body so well. Amnesia? The body keeps forgetting these things and just carries on. I forget that I dislike this life. I forget that I have ever encountered the problem. I forget that I am so tired of running and running. My body can just forget it all.
我在網上無意閒看見了一個十五年的好朋友。變化使我無法相信我那親眼所見的事。我所認識
The root of the problem is this Amnesia. If I could just remember everything, if I could remember all that happiness and unhappiness, maybe in the end, I would not have Avoided all the things to finally destroy the everything. I am writing this to remind myself. If I Avoid, things would just get worst. If I Avoid, problems cannot be solved.
那善良的男孩如今因爲這個亂世而開始抽煙、打洞、紋身，樣樣都做。如果幾年前的我，可以
The funny thing is, I am writing it down but yet knowing that I will forget that I have wrote this and felt this way after I have uploaded the post. Somebody told me this, “Sheer determination can surpass the impossible”. I wonder if it is true.
不顧一切的在他的身邊，事情會有所改變嗎？說到底，我就是無能。我敗給了這個亂世，也無
Can I really remember everything by just Sheer Determination?
法改變自己、幫助身邊人、守護我所愛的人。我…只有慚愧。

Sunday, July 19, 2009

感激 篇.

Time can really fly without one knowing at all. I have swiftly gone past Week 11 of my school term. I am feeling much better ever since the last post. Grades are getting much better now, despite the still horrendous UT results. Of course, thanks to some of my really nice friends, and pals now, that I am achieving these now. (I am referring to the good grades, not the horrendous UT results >.<)
時過間的非快常。 又幾是個星過期去了。最的近我雖還然滿開的心，但是還有少的許憂鬱。
The biggest credit goes to one of my pool of FANTASTIC classmates, AMANDA HO.




可這能已經了成一種慣習了吧，在麽怎開心不都能夠分百百的得覺快樂。總還是有一點點的
When I was at the lowest point of my life last week, her words pulled me out of that eternal hole. Before she talked to me, I seriously lost all of my motivation to work hard.
覺難得過。人說常“在明光的背還後是會在存著黑的暗影子。問閒世如果了少黑暗，怎能麽凸
After that very motivational conversation, I could feel that powers back again. And surprisingly, that motivation holds out till now.
現光出明的眼耀呢？”有必愛有恨，有必好有坏，有那光也必黑有暗的在存的。我道知你可不
To Amanda…“Thanks man! Let’s work hard together and get those grades!”
能會認我同的看或法說法，我不也求你認的同，可我是還是望希你可諒以解我，體我諒。我開
Another one of my classmate who also has been helping me a lot is, ANGEL. She is totally like a real angel to me. Not that she has wings, but she possesses that very special power. I won’t say anything, but she knows what I mean.
很心在一這個學裏期我找一到個和滿我相似人的，但可很惜她功的力還有沒我的麽那深厚。說
These days, we have been cam-whoring like nobody’s business in class. But we also have our productive times. And this is the product that I am most proud of. We did those ourselves, 2 people.

的真，我不還是很解了她所的藏力量多有少，我不也希望也她和我樣一一直浮沉在這怕可的黑
To Angel…”Ahahs. Stay happy always k. Know that I can understand what you are feeling. Don’t hide. I’m counting on you too (:”
世暗界裏。你能可會問為我什麽放不手，但家大應該知也道，有東些西不説是放就放能的。更
Not forgetting the rest of my classmates as well, of course.
況何是藏心在裏的種那陰面暗。就時讓間來淡沖這一吧切。





To E66A…”Everyone! Let us put in our best and run finish this lap together. GoGo! ” Apart from my lovely classmates, there is just 1 more person that I want to recognize here. Although I know that idiot is going to give that =.= face when he sees this, but nevertheless, he shall appear here.
如你果剛好到讀這一請切你就這把一切成當是你的我一個密秘。謝。
Yar, it’s that CONG, Tay Bi Cong.



I would say that he is the only one these days. The only one who would spend his time to accommodate to me, listen to all my ranting, forgive all that Jared-Habits of mine, still Dota with me whenever I ask him to, come to my house and slack with me, sleep on my bed with me after chit-chatting for like 5 hours though the night and all that most idiotic stuff that you can think of.

I seriously don’t know what to say or feel, but I really feel that it has been the greatest blessing to have this friend to perfect my imperfect world. I can’t do anything, but just to ask the Lord to bless him too. I pray also to perfect up his world.

To him…”Just shut up. Stop giving me that look. Can’t say thanks to you is it? Primer Guo CONG ming! LOLS. >.<”
既然你看見，那就索性給你這次的通關方法。它就是“正下，甲丙乙丁，順字而下”加油！
I just pray that I would be able to keep up with this fast-paced world. And may I have the wisdom to see through this world. AMEN!

Believe it or not. I drew this. That word just kind of felt very me at that point of time. Hope you liked it.

Labels: Friends are angels sent by God

Wednesday, July 1, 2009

回 之 篇.

Seriously, it has been a long time since I wanted to blog... Not only time doesn’t allow me, my heart doesn’t allow me. I thank those who understood what I meant in the previous post. I know it is not an easy task to understand what I meant there, but I appreciated everyone’s effort to just try to read it.
到腦后吧。但是，真的能夠這樣做嗎？
I seriously have not been performing up to standards for the past few weeks. And to give you a better a idea of where I am now, I will let you see my latest grades. I know I shouldn’t be showing this kind of shi* to everyone, but come on, let’s all stink together.

掩飾。不想再多說了，也唯一只有這樣過下去了。學校，工作，所有的人，事，物，都把它抛
You see how “wonderful” my grades are? Forget about the 3 Bs there and I even have a late. These days, I seriously have totally no motivation to just try to early. I don’t even feel like spending a single cent just to reach school on time. Buying time with money strategy is far from what I do now. I seem more to be like “Late-means no-work-hard” strategy now.
的，我確實心裏有病。病名就是頽廢。 也別多問那是設麽了，我根本就不想解釋。解釋就是
I am seriously getting lazier by the years. And now, I am even so lazy as to even lazy to be early. I am even lazy to work and lazy to think. I seriously wonder which screw just came loose off my head. Grades are bad, UTs are bad. I am starting to forget what does GPA 4.0 and ROH means. “Guo Ming ah Guo ming… I seriously miss the times when you were there to tell me that we are going to stand at the top together.”
你們究竟是心里有病還是硬要我承認我心裏有病？如果事實是如此，那我現在就告訴你們，是
I guess the H1N1 flu thing really affected me a lot. Not only it affected RP student’s health, it affects my mood, my motivation and now my marks to. Just look at the latest report of the number of cases of H1N1 in RP.
子，這副德性。你們到底想要聽到的答案是設麽？難道你認爲每個人都要向你們這個樣子嗎？
A whooping 84 cases already and the school are still there open and inviting. It is not that I don’t agree it doesn’t help by closing the school for a while. Obviously I know the world still revolves even with the H1N1 flu virus out there. But do the very least and close the school for a day and do some THROUGH cleaning man!



你身旁的人着想過呢？你們常問我，爲什麽我是如此的一個人，爲何我的言行舉止是這個樣
The look of the school today is just terrible. You can only see a handful of people lingering around the school when you reach RP in the early morning. Is it due to the weather today, or that RP just gives me the creeps. Or have I played Left 4 Dead too much, that I feel as if the school is just like the Hospital Chapter in L4D. I totally feel like there is going to be zombies chasing me soon.
就算我不顧一切的慢下來，也會遭到極端的砲轟。你們有沒有想過別人的感受。有沒有就為
Looks like I have to summon all my old weapons back soon. (Now now… just where did I left my precious feather duster…)
個世界。忙碌于工作，功課，處理人際關係，整理自己的私生活， 根本無法停下來喘口氣。
But with the report as well, it looks like E6 is still the safest block after all. Being the only unaffected block in the school, we are soon going to become “Left-1-Dead” soon. And I think you know how it feels when you are the only surviving one, fighting with all those…things.

最想的人，事，物。但這樣的方法可能也會給我留一塊真正屬於我的空間。我真的很厭倦這
Despite all these common news, what is more interesting about H1N1 is that, out of all the schools that were affected, the top few schools are all related to me. Apart from the “notorious” Republic Poly that has scared away “hundreds” of taxi drivers, Westwood Secondary school is also my previous school. It seems that the next and upcoming one should be Corporation Primary?! Anything that has affiliation with me, are all having trouble with the H1N1.
感覺上這樣的寫作方式真得比較好。雖然可能會完全沒有一個人會看見或者讀到我現在心中
Just wonder when is it going to be my turn?

Let us just pray to our Lord for a moment. O Almighty God whom with you we can achieve all things. I know that these had to come before your great arrival. I just pray O Lord that you may cover all my loved ones with your mighty arms. (If you are reading this…you have been blessed by my Holy Father) I know you love us too much to see us hurt and sick. I pray O Lord that you may cease the world of such sufferings. In your Most Wonderful and Highest Name, Jesus, AMEN!

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